Kinzie's Baptism Dress

I can't get the picture to upload. Here's the dress!

I Know, I Know

Holy Cow! It's been over 4 months since I've written and since I've had our b-e-a-utiful daughter, Kinzie. She is perfect in every way! I could go on and on and on!

Currently she:
~weighs about 16 lbs and she’s 26 inches long! She’s my chunky monkey!
~is SOOOOO close to rolling over! She’s done it twice in the last week, but I think they were both lucky shots! I know she can do it. Any day now!
~loves to giggle. I don’t help this, because she’s ticklish and I’ve found her spots.
~loves VH1. (This is her daddy’s doing.)
~can track and will track anything!
~has started to try and sit up. It’s so much more fun to look out when sitting up then look up when laying down!
~has started to eat oatmeal, applesauce and sweet potatoes. She loves food! She hasn’t quite mastered swallowing her food yet, but she is doing SOOO much better than a week ago. She eats cereal/fruit in the am and cereal/veggie in the evening.
~has finally gotten on a really good schedule and is pretty dang consistent!

These are just a few of her awesome skills! She was baptized this past Sunday and did really well! It was a long day and incredibly tiring for all of us, but it was a great day filled with amazing friends and family! Here is a picture of her in her dress. This is the dress that I wore and my mom wore too! It’s 54 years old and was still in very good shape!


As for my adjustment to parenthood. It’s going very well! It helps that Kinzie sleeps through the night. I know I’m very fortunate! We’ve got a pretty good system and schedule going right now, which also helps. Some days we don’t do anything but hang out and cuddle when we get home from work, some days I get a ton done. Either way, she is my most important priority and the rest is small stuff!

Waiting on Baby

I've thought about whether or not to share some stuff, but its my life and its my blog and it needs to get outta my head a bit.

If you've been reading my blog at all, you know that Nick and I didn't get pregnant easily the first time.  We can't just touch our toothbrushes like some people.   It took about a year and a half, many dr. appointments and meds for 6 months.    In a month that I wasn't even expecting we got pregnant.   We found out a couple days before Valentine's Days of 2009.

Fast forward to last summer.   We decided that we thought we were getting close to want to start trying to have kids again.  I went back to the doctor.   My ovulation was very off.   My dr. put me back on my meds.   I've been on the meds since July.   The side affects are really bad.   Last time I was on them, I managed, but this time I had to quit them.   I've been off them for 3 months.   It's been an emotional three months.  

Infertility is hard.    I've got friends that are struggling through it.    I should be grateful that I have one beautiful daughter, and I am.    Kinzie is perfect and I am so happy that we have been blessed with her. 

But....
I don't want her to be an only child....
I want another baby to rock, to feed, to cuddle....
I want to share my love with another child....
I want to watch Nick become a daddy again....
I want to be pregnant again....

I want to do all of those things and more....Woman have waited for 90 years (hello, Sarah....what patience to wait and trust in God's timing)  I wish I had her patience and trust.   I know that God knows how many children I'll have, but I can only pray that he'll allow me to be a mother to more children than Kinzie

Ready? Or not?

I've tried to write this post a couple times. I'm not quite sure what I should put. I'm officially overdue and that is fine. I have food in the freezer, I have a clean house, the nursery is ready, the bags are packed. I'm ready in all sense of things that needed to get done, but I'm not ready at all.

I'm excited to meet our baby! I can't wait to fall in love with their beautiful face and officially call it by name.......

BUT I'm a nervous wreck in the same moment. I've had such an easy pregnancy. I've had no problems, no major scares, no swelling, not being too uncomfortable (I'm still relatively good most of the time.) How am I going to handle labor, I'm not even sure I'm going to know I'm going into labor. How am I going to treat Nick- I tend to get mean when I'm not comfortable. How am I going to deal with all the company and visitors (especially both families!)

Then when I get home, am I truly going to know what to do? I've been around babies and kids my entire life. I know them, but what about my own...will I be able to do it, knowing I can't pass baby on when it gets tough.

So all these thoughts are just tumbling around and I know it will all fall into place, it'll be a great time and I'm going to love it.....but

Baby, you can stay in as long as you want too! I want you to be ready and let's pray that I'm ready when you're ready!

I'm having the heebie jeebies. I put on my shoes this morning. They were sitting in our entryway. It's a process now to put on shoes so I was slightly perturbed when I felt something in my one shoe and it didn't feel right. I sat back down and went through taking it off and examining it. Nothing came out, so I got under the bright light and a HUGE cricket was in my shoe! GROSS! It got washed down the sink, so as to never visit my shoe again! I can still feel it crawling on my toes though. I hate that feeling!

I love fall! Fall is a time for new beginnings and a time for celebrating endings. There are many favorite things for me about fall! So...in no particular order.....here are my favorite things about fall for 2009 and why!

1. Fresh paint-The basement is painted. It needs carpet and then it is ready for a party! I can hardly wait to get my house put back together!

2. Husker Football-I went to my first game in over 5 years two weeks ago! I made it up the stairs and had a great time! I forgot how neat the atmosphere is down there! Can't wait to watch the rest of the season!

3. Apples and Carmel Dip-I do believe this is my end of pregnancy craving! I've had a lot of these and I don't plan on stopping eating them anytime soon! My mom and I took Tristan down to the Apple Jack Festival. Got some yummy apple donuts, apple butter and of course apples!

4. Harvest-I should hate it, My husband works 12 to 15 hour days, I don't see him and its crazy, but I love this time! I love seeing his excitement and thrill when his farmers have a good harvest. I also love watching the combines, especially at night.

As for school it's going well. The kids are getting into the routine and starting to follow rules and procedures better! I'm getting ready to wind down. I have 2 more full weeks and then a week of half days and then I'm done. My sub is lined up and I'm spending time getting plans really finalized and ready for her.

We've got 30 days left or more or less before Lil Dittmer arrives. I'm feeling pretty good. I've had a few contractions here and there, but nothing serious. I start weekly dr. appointments on Monday. I've got to interview 2 daycares this week and next week we meet our pediatrician. The nursery has all the furniture in, everything has been washed and I need to put a few more things away. I went shopping today for some lounging clothes and nightgowns. After I get that all washed, I'm ready to pack my bag for the hospital. I know that I'm somewhat of a procrastinator, but am feeling pretty good about where we are with everything. Hopefully that feeling lasts through the next two weeks as I'm very busy finishing school and baby gets closer! I've been really bad the last trimester about taking belly pics, but a few people have requeted, so I'll comply and put a 36 week picture up on Monday!

Hold on to your hats ladies and gents...it's been a whirlwind around these parts!

I can't believe it's August already! Summer has FLOWN by!

In a nutshell we've been doing house, grad school, selling corn, traveling, baby.

Our basement is in the painting stages! We've got about 2/3 painted. Very thankful to my grandma who primed the entire basement! Yeah she's 79 and AMAZING!

I completed my first summer of grad class! All A's!!! Go ME! Taking the fall off due to baby, but planning on taking a class in the spring.

Nick is doing the corn thing and being amazing at it! He won the regional award and the national award for top Resource Manager at his company! He has two pretty glass plaques to go up in his new office.

We went to KC for his yearly meeting and are heading to the Ozarks at the end of this week for a family reunion. Both short trips, but also good to get away! Because of his award he also gets the chance to go to Chicago in a copule weeks for the weekend. I'm not sure if I can go or not due to work, but if it works I'll be there! Chicago is my favorite big city!

As for baby, we're good. I'm 28 weeks tomorrow!!!!! YAY for 3rd trimester! I haven't started nesting yet. I hope it kicks in soon! I have a LOT to do. Still haven't found daycare and haven't done the pediatrician yet either. The nursery is painted, but that's about it.

Well I'm off to bed! Busy day tomorrow: Doctor, prenatal massage, painting and getting reday for vacay!