Ready? Or not?

I've tried to write this post a couple times. I'm not quite sure what I should put. I'm officially overdue and that is fine. I have food in the freezer, I have a clean house, the nursery is ready, the bags are packed. I'm ready in all sense of things that needed to get done, but I'm not ready at all.

I'm excited to meet our baby! I can't wait to fall in love with their beautiful face and officially call it by name.......

BUT I'm a nervous wreck in the same moment. I've had such an easy pregnancy. I've had no problems, no major scares, no swelling, not being too uncomfortable (I'm still relatively good most of the time.) How am I going to handle labor, I'm not even sure I'm going to know I'm going into labor. How am I going to treat Nick- I tend to get mean when I'm not comfortable. How am I going to deal with all the company and visitors (especially both families!)

Then when I get home, am I truly going to know what to do? I've been around babies and kids my entire life. I know them, but what about my own...will I be able to do it, knowing I can't pass baby on when it gets tough.

So all these thoughts are just tumbling around and I know it will all fall into place, it'll be a great time and I'm going to love it.....but

Baby, you can stay in as long as you want too! I want you to be ready and let's pray that I'm ready when you're ready!

I'm having the heebie jeebies. I put on my shoes this morning. They were sitting in our entryway. It's a process now to put on shoes so I was slightly perturbed when I felt something in my one shoe and it didn't feel right. I sat back down and went through taking it off and examining it. Nothing came out, so I got under the bright light and a HUGE cricket was in my shoe! GROSS! It got washed down the sink, so as to never visit my shoe again! I can still feel it crawling on my toes though. I hate that feeling!