I've thought about whether or not to share some stuff, but its my life and its my blog and it needs to get outta my head a bit.
If you've been reading my blog at all, you know that Nick and I didn't get pregnant easily the first time. We can't just touch our toothbrushes like some people. It took about a year and a half, many dr. appointments and meds for 6 months. In a month that I wasn't even expecting we got pregnant. We found out a couple days before Valentine's Days of 2009.
Fast forward to last summer. We decided that we thought we were getting close to want to start trying to have kids again. I went back to the doctor. My ovulation was very off. My dr. put me back on my meds. I've been on the meds since July. The side affects are really bad. Last time I was on them, I managed, but this time I had to quit them. I've been off them for 3 months. It's been an emotional three months.
Infertility is hard. I've got friends that are struggling through it. I should be grateful that I have one beautiful daughter, and I am. Kinzie is perfect and I am so happy that we have been blessed with her.
But....
I don't want her to be an only child....
I want another baby to rock, to feed, to cuddle....
I want to share my love with another child....
I want to watch Nick become a daddy again....
I want to be pregnant again....
I want to do all of those things and more....Woman have waited for 90 years (hello, Sarah....what patience to wait and trust in God's timing) I wish I had her patience and trust. I know that God knows how many children I'll have, but I can only pray that he'll allow me to be a mother to more children than Kinzie.
If you've been reading my blog at all, you know that Nick and I didn't get pregnant easily the first time. We can't just touch our toothbrushes like some people. It took about a year and a half, many dr. appointments and meds for 6 months. In a month that I wasn't even expecting we got pregnant. We found out a couple days before Valentine's Days of 2009.
Fast forward to last summer. We decided that we thought we were getting close to want to start trying to have kids again. I went back to the doctor. My ovulation was very off. My dr. put me back on my meds. I've been on the meds since July. The side affects are really bad. Last time I was on them, I managed, but this time I had to quit them. I've been off them for 3 months. It's been an emotional three months.
Infertility is hard. I've got friends that are struggling through it. I should be grateful that I have one beautiful daughter, and I am. Kinzie is perfect and I am so happy that we have been blessed with her.
But....
I don't want her to be an only child....
I want another baby to rock, to feed, to cuddle....
I want to share my love with another child....
I want to watch Nick become a daddy again....
I want to be pregnant again....
I want to do all of those things and more....Woman have waited for 90 years (hello, Sarah....what patience to wait and trust in God's timing) I wish I had her patience and trust. I know that God knows how many children I'll have, but I can only pray that he'll allow me to be a mother to more children than Kinzie.
3 comments:
We'll add you to our baby prayer list! And if you have twins....we will not be held responsible! Merely coincidence! No...we're not having twins...but I have something to tell you when I talk to you! :)
I feel so guilty when I read posts like this. Or talk to friends that have infertility problems. We have been blessed not to have that problem. I have been yelled at and called a fertile myrtle a time or two. I can't relate to you in any way when it comes to this. But my heart does go out to you and others that are in the same boat. I can't imagine the hurt and frustration you go through. I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us, and it is perfect. Even if we think it's not, it really is. Have faith and all will work out for the best!
I can sorta relate a bit...we tried for about 6 months to get pregnant with our second pregnancy and then had the miscarriage at 3 months...that sucked! I barely remember having any relations with my husband the month I got pregnant with Drake! HA! God just knew we were really hurting from our last experience. I pray that His plan for you is extra exciting! HUGS
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