Absent but Here

I know I've been absent. I know there are many things I could write about.

I could tell you about how school is. That I'm to the point of the year where I have to start job hunting. That it stresses me out. I could tell you that I'm excited for spring b/c we're going on a field trip. I could tell you that we're switching things up and that its not the "norm" and I'm excited for it. And scared of it at the same time.

I could tell you about how I am struggling with the whole having a baby and the doubting of my ability that I have and that feel like I'm subconsciously analyzing myself and then psyching myself out and therefore think that I'm not trying my hardest to have a baby.

I could tell you about what Nick and I have been doing. How Sadie is. How grown-up my nephew is becoming. I have so many things that I have wanted to share.

But none of it comes out like I want it to, none of it really feels that worthy of the blog, none of it makes sense on paper like it does in my head or my heart.

So I won't go into details on that. I'll just tell you that I'm here, I'm breathing and taking one day at a time. And for now that will have to suffice.

Meanwhile, I'm reading and occasionally commenting and you my dear bloggers have kept me smiling, kept me praying, kept me laughing, kept me crying, kept me grounded, kept me me at the time when I don't think I am even close to me.